At last Lord a Rey of hope!

It's been a long weekend but a productive one. I've learned a lot about myself and admitted some of it.  But good news first.  The news on Friday was preliminary results of colonoscopy. Well the good news is that to did not get any worse when the actual report came back.  Lots of biopsies taken but only the one cancer at the bottom right corner of Colon.  Inflammation in esophagus can be ok with meds.  A polyp where the stomach goes into the intestine needs attention but not cancerous.  No other issues.  That was the first good news in this whole ordeal but I was encouraged. 

My friend Cindy told me to do exactly way at the Dr said. She had cancer 25 years ago and has everytime she contacts me she says do exactly what the Dr says.  Well, I'm not good at going to Dr so not good at listening and doing either.  But I had been in terrible pain for several weeks and was asking the very minimum meds that I could get by with. If it said 2 I'd do 1 if it said 4 hours I'd push for 6.  But Sunday morning I divided to do it.  I could not eat from pain and could not sleep and could not get around very well.  Now I'm taking Tylenol and nexium like the dr said and really feeling better. Sleeping better and eating a little more.  Still small amounts cause gall bladder does get mad a sme things and at quantities.  Like the pbj I tried for bedtime snack.  While eating it I read about it and found its not good. To much fat.  I only ate a forth but already suffering.  Need to read first eat later.  Until we really get a complete diagnosis I guess food is all questionable.  

My friend Karin posted a beautiful reminder about faith...

"What is faith?  It is the confident assurance that something we want is going to happen.  It is the certainty that what we hope for is waiting for us, even though we cannot see it up ahead."   Hebrews 11:1

I had not had the courage until then to tell God what I wanted. I want to Live.  I've had such an amazing life and so full and complete. I have a son, a husband , parents and so many more waiting in Heaven that I was a little torn.  Somehow I just couldnt say I want to live. But when I read that I knew I wanted to live.  It may be a tough battle but I'm a fighter and plan to fight with all I've got and plan to be victorious and give God all the glory.  If it was easy, I could still praise Him with all I have, but I'm ok either way cause I Believe He still has challenges for me to meet and in all things give thanks.  I do know that everyday will now have new meaning and I pray I waste NO more of the time God gives me.

I did have a sono gram of liver, gall bladder, pancrease today so will hear more about that tomorrow at visit with oncologist.  Expecting him to call for a pet scan before deciding on treatment plan.  It's been a long 2 weeks but I've learned a lot and now pray I'll put it to good use and we continue this journey. Please I pray you continue to pray for me and my amazing family.  They are taking such good care of me.  I don't have to worry about anything I just follow them around and they get get me to the right place at the right time in the proper condition.  They are doing a shared custody thing. Last week I was with Christy and this week I'm with Michelle.thank you Lord for my amazing daughters.