First step

You don't often look forward to an unknown journey that is out of your control, but sometimes that's the hand you draw.  I love to travel so thinking of this as a journey helps me embrace t and see it as an adventure. In Amman Jordan 3 years ago I was involved in a tear gas attack.  Not what I was expecting but what I got.  Quite an adventure though not fun.  

Now I embark on another journey. My personal trip THROUGH cancer.  There I said it.  Not an easy word to say for me.  I have avoided thinking about it all my life and since my family tends more toward bad hearts, I though you dealt with hearts or cancer and expected mine would be heart problems that would take me HOME.  Well not planning to go HOME yet and still cancer may not be my way out of Earth.  My plan is to embark and then one day debark on the other side of cancer.  I appreciate your love and prayers as I try to share this journey with those who care about my journey or may be on your own journey.

I am 69 and always considered myself to be very healthy. Overweight all my life, born at 10.8 pounds.

Had blood pressure issues for about the last 10 years but under control.  Go to the Dr every year but just to get refills for bp meds.  Do anything I want. Go when and where I want and do whatever I want. Life is good.  *^€~<¥£€#.  Then 2 months ago that came to a screeching halt.  Overnight my stomach started acting like a volcano. Upper and lower grumbling and eruptions. Even moving like I was 10 months pregnant.  I was so uncomfortable I took every anti acid I could find changed my eating and finally called the Dr. Saw a PA who sent me for a ct scan.   Next day she called and said words like, radiologist didn't like it.  Spots here and there. MALIGNANT here, suspicious there. Things I had never heard before.  Very unprofessional of her to present details so scary and on the phone but she was in Weatherford and I was in Allen so she did not want me to have to come an hour and half for this.  Anyway I assumed it was inaccurate but still worrisome. No. It was scary as heck.  Christy was on vaca in Florida so not sure what to do. Worked out Oncologist could not see me till the next Monday.  His attitude was that nothing was conclusive keep texting.  Only conclusion was Gall stone and critically low Hemoglobin count. So got 2 units of blood and tests.  Yesterday the colonoscopy was pretty conclusive ( but let's leave God room to be God ). Colon cancer. Several biopsies to see where else it could be or is not.  Praying for is not.  Still lots of bloating and indigestion. Praying its gall bladder but symptoms could be liver as well. Eyes are clear and numbers in blood work were good for liver so please join me in praying for liver to be clear.  Pretty serious pain in area of gall bladder so hoping liver is ok and they can yank that gall bladder out.  I think it will be easier to strike out on this journey if I'm not in pain.. New blood made me stronger so that was a blessing. But I've got some even better blood working for me and that's the blood of Jesus. I am so happy that I know Jesus is in control and all things are possible through Him if I only believe.  I Believe